Fun Without Accomplishment

There is an infinite number of types of people. But there are people who are always looking to accomplish things, and then there are people who don't worry about such things. In that strict sense, there are only two types of people. I am the latter of the two. I am retired now but when I wake up in the morning, I put no demands on myself to accomplish anything. I don't think about mowing the lawn, or painting a room, or writing a blog entry. I suppose if I have a goal day in and day out, it is to find amusement. But then, that has always been the case. 

I blame this attitude on my being a poor student. I could not have been a good one. I had below average scholastic aptitude. I knew by the time I was 14 that there was never going to be a college education. I was not going to be a neurosurgeon, or a archaeologist, or a university professor. I was going to drive a bus, or sell furniture, or be a plumber. Something like that would be my source of income, none of them could be my life's interest. Those occupations simply are not interesting. They are chosen based on income and availability, not because of some life's interest. 

I did my best driving a delivery truck, and I was not ashamed of doing it, but it was not what I proclaimed I wanted to be when I was asked at age 8 "what do you want to be when you grow up?" 

I have gone through my life with the single goal of entertaining myself and hopefully, being at least a somewhat enjoyable person to those who I encountered. Usually I entertained myself with humorous and even silly observations concerning my world. Once in a while the self-entertainment has come in the form of something more philosophical than outright funny. With the absence of a meaningful career, self-entertainment has been the driving force in my life. 

I am not alone in this life situation, of course. Not many barbers or dentist receptionists had those occupations in mind for their dream job. In some ways it is too bad, though most people find meaning and purpose in their daily lives regardless of occupation. As for myself, I may not accomplish much, strictly speaking, but I have fun doing it, and that has been enough.